DEO’S DIARY EPISODE 13...NO NOT AGAIN

                                        

It’s been two days now since mom had been hospitalized, she is really recovering fast and I wonder if that comes with the anger she has inside of her. Somehow I feel like I put her in that condition by telling her things she didn’t know in the first place.

I don’t know where this is leading to, but with what I saw in the hospital some days ago, I still can’t wrap my head around it, the anger my mom showed and the way she got everyone including my dad startling with her tone and threat to commit suicide.

She finally opened her eyes and gain full consciousness the night after the incident, I was making tea for her when dad entered her ward, dad looked so scared and he rushed to my mom asking her what happened, my mom that was looking cool under her white sheet before his appearance, suddenly look angry and furious, I was there staring at both of them and mom voiced out repeatedly, ‘’who is Fola?’’ Who is Fola? So you’re gay,” Adeolu Anthony you are bloody gay” for the first time I heard my mom call my dad’s full name.

Dad was looking numb and embarrassed, he can’t even move, we all know that look on his face, his lips were moving but we can’t hear any sound, mom kept shouting and some nurses rushed inside the room, “I want this man out now or I will kill myself” she was trying to force the drip out of her vein, dad was asked to go out and I felt a bit embarrassed for him, and my mom filled with tears and anger, I was there unable to  follow my dad or console my mom, it’s like watching the sky falling, it’s really not a movie, this is my family tearing apart.

Thank goodness for sedative injection that put my mom out of her misery, I wish I could get a shot too, but the nurse told me to go home and they promised to call me when she wakes, I don’t want to go home, but Annie’s place is not an option either. I remembered my mom secret house and that just seems to be the best place I could go and unwind, now I really need that house to chill and ease some pain all alone, I don’t want to see my dad’s face, and mom’s voice keep resounding in my head, “so you’re gay…

Something about non-living things, you meet them the exact way you leave them, the sitting room looking “the exact way I left it, throw pillows all over the place, I went to my mom’s room and it was just as bad. The sitting room seems to make more sense. I saw and half-filled red wine in the fridge, that’s so what I needed, I removed the cover and kissed the bottle, nothing could have feel better in my mouth now, not even Fola, or Collins dick, it seems like the whole situation beats me back to normal, the thought dad’s dick or touch is so gross to me and I wish I never wished for it.

I turned the TV on, after five minutes of changing channels from one boring program to another, and the only thing that is keeping me going which is my red wine has finished. I decided to watch one of the DVDs on the table, then I noticed a flash drive plugged to the dvd player, I’m not really interested in what’s on that flash, but I am so bored and there might be series of movies on it, so I changed the TV mode to flash and it starts reading, it has just one video file on it named wrapped”  so I decided to play, it was a bit dark, and there was  no voice, I forward it a bit, then it became clearer, what I saw was totally crazy.

I gently walked to the couch, sat down and watch the video from the beginning to the end, the fact that there is no voice totally annoys me, but watching my father fucking another woman like a porn star totally turns me on, I was practically cursing the recorder for turning off the sound, watching porn without a sound for me, is like drinking tea without sugar, (I’m not diabetic) at least put some honey on it. It took the little angel in me to realize I just watched the sickest video. 

My father and another woman, what could he have been thinking making such a video and who is this woman?

I now understand why mom was so hurt before I added  the gay part to worsen it, she had been watching the video before I came,  I can’t even processed which of it is worse, your husband having sex with another man or having sex with another woman on camera, my dad is doing the two, what kind of animal is he? Aren't we all animals.

I am so pissed now and I don’t know what to do, but who recorded this and send to my mom, how did my dad got himself into this mess, not even in this year 2015 when everything easily go viral on the internet, my family name, oh mom must have been very angry.

I couldn’t sleep all night and I wish something will just come and take me away from here, all my strategy gone and I don’t know how to start putting this puzzle together, somehow in the middle of my thought, I was hoping I can lay my hands on a video of dad having sex with Fola, what does gay sex look like, I’m sure it must be fun too, even though I don’t even know what real sex feels like, but whatever what I did with Annie is called, I totally enjoyed it, my curiosity won’t stop, so I browsed a gay porn on my phone, and diary let’s forget the drama I am going through, if I am a guy I will try having sex with a guy so that I know what being heterosexual and homosexual really feels like, I am just  a crazy girl that love to explore and feel what everyone feels, I don’t judge  cos we all have our life to live, I should be whipped for pock nosing too much into everyone’s privacy because my mom almost died over that.

I got a call from the nurse to bring some stuff for my mom and she will be discharged by the end of the week, I don’t know what tomorrow holds and I wish I could speak to a psychic now, I don’t really believe in them but I just want something to tell me everything is going to be alright, I ended up downloading Alicia Keys “No one” hoping everything is truly gonna be alright.

I don’t know how dad is doing, so I  called him like twice but no answer, I hope he is alright, maybe he is with Fola, sleeping in his arm or with his porn lady shooting another video to send my mom to quick heaven, wherever he is, I pray Lord he is not doing anything crazy.

Thank you for reading my crazy diary, remember to comment.