DEO'S DIARY EP 18 - MY MOM’S SUGAR BOY THAT MAKES MY CLITORIS MOVES WITH HIS GORGEOUS LOOK.

Dear diary!

Nothing in life is perfect, not me or my family.

I have gay friends, I have a crazy family and yet to some people my family is not even a definition of crazy. But I believe our imperfection is what brings us together, with touch of pretence that makes us look better than other families.

I left the house, sure of no surprises, no reason to think too much, than to sit down with my sad mother, and try to make her happy with my wry jokes and talk about the issues in the family, little did I know of what was waiting for me.

Guess who I met at the hospital? 

I've almost forgotten his existence, and he was the last on my mind anyway.

Let me take your mind back to when I was still scratching the surface of the secrets in the family, let’s flip the pages back to ‘episode seven’, Remember the sexy player guy that tickles my fancy.

Oh yes!

It was him. Collins!

My mom's sugar boy that makes my clitoris moves with his gorgeous look.

Like I've not seen enough already, I met him at the hospital, sitting next to my mother, and they were both laughing like a happy couple.

Come to think of it, my mother is like ten years older than this dude, Good lord! But Collins is sexy, charming, lovely smile that exposes his well-constructed white teeth, and his bald head is a total turn on for me, smooth and shining like the back of a watermelon.

I see why my mum can’t let go, neither was I able to get over him, I was only caught-up with too many things, I almost gave him my virginity before I discovered the dirty affair going on between him and my mother.

Seeing them together triggered some anger within me, I don’t know if its jealousy or just annoyed, but whatever it is, I hate them together. How can they look perfectly together, while I'm dying of loneliness and looking for redemption for my parents, when they had their own good fun life when they were my age.

My emotions almost took over me, but like a good girl that I love to be, I kept my cool, hug my mom, and said hello to Collins without looking at him, I saw the big surprise on his face, I don’t know what it was about, my attitude towards him or because the fact that we are meeting again after a long time in the hospital.

My mom introduced him as her friend and I was introduced as her only daughter.

Yes! I was a bit bitchy because I didn't respond very well to his greetings, I rolled my eyes and started punching the keys on my phone, there was really nothing to do on my phone, but that was why candy crush was created, and it felt like I was crushing my candy big time, he was suppose to be my candy.

There was a long silence in the room, I totally make him feel uncomfortable, and he only word that broke the silence, was him telling my mom he’s leaving.

 A part of me was happy to hear him leaving, he stood up on his long legs, and I can’t take my eyes from his egg plant saying hello to me from his tight pants, he bent and pecked my mom's cheek goodbye, and she patted his back, telling him to come check on her soon, which he agreed to by nodding his head, he turned to me and chuckled, I gave a vacant stare at him and watched him turn his back, what a boyish charm, egoistic and charismatic, his lips are to die for and I wished for a goodbye kiss instead. It was painful to watch him leave, knowing the clumsiness between us.

Oh Collins! Back to spin my head 360 degrees and make my clitoris move like a snail trying to find his way.

My mom was not happy with my attitude and she asked ‘’why I acted that way towards her friend’’, I told her I don’t like him, and why is she with him?

She laughed and told me ‘’he is just a friend and when she is ready to cheat on my dad, ‘it won’t be with someone like Collins’. He’s just a boy I took interest in; I helped him get through his school since his mother died, and he sees me as a mother figure. So if you want to get jealous for your father, it’s not yet the time’’.

 The truth is I'm not jealous for my dad, or my mom, this time it’s for myself, can’t I just do something for myself?.

After all the bickering, we both got over the whole scenario and moved on to our mother and daughter moment, it was a happy one as we talked about almost everything, she told me about other patients and I told her about my imaginary suitor. 

I made-up a story on that just not to kill the fun we are having, I told her about Hakeem...the guy that works at the bank who won’t stop asking me out, and we went on a date few days ago which was a great one, she seems happy about the story and completely bought it.

The happy moment changed when I asked my mom if there is anything I can do to fix the whole situation between my dad and her...I know my mom to be a strong willed woman (more like a stubborn mega bitch, and I'm not going to apologise for describing her the exact way she is, a Bitch with the big B meaning Bad) and sometimes it makes me not to pity her, but seeing her vulnerability these days, showed me she is only a woman (not some transgender, no offence).

Tears rolled down her eyes and she was totally silent, with her lip tightly closed, looking sadder than faces that have seen described as sad. I almost regretted asking the question, but I really need to know.

I wiped her tears with my palms, it was an emotional moment, I have never felt like this or be in this kind of state with her, my eyes was filled with tears too, and it took all the strength in me to hold it back. My mom in her right mind won’t shed a tear or allow me to touch her face with my hands, (there are a thousand germs on your hands, so you can’t touch her face with it) but here we are, a crying mother and a consoling daughter. The emotional minute ended and I just want to tell her to suck it in because she is a strong woman, but before I could think of the right word to say to her, she snapped out of it.

She told me how much she loved, and still love my dad, I can feel the trueness and sincerity in her voice, ‘’her eyes lit when she mention love for my dad and it was like there was an invisible fan somewhere that is blowing her hair as she was talking, and I thought to myself my Diva Mama’’

She said ‘’she is not happy about her decision to divorce my dad, ‘but the truth is your father is suddenly a dog’ and he is not even good at being one, because ‘he shits every where I can see it, and I end up cleaning up the mess’, each time he cheats on me, it comes back with a drama’’.

She sighed, and continued...

‘’There was a woman who claimed to have HIV and has slept with your father without protection, although we both tested negative; but we are still waiting for the window period.

Like that was not enough, there was another woman that threatened to post naked pictures of your dad with her if we don’t pay her, I paid her with my own money because your father had put all his cash in some business that time and it was millions.

Now it’s another woman with sex video with your father, then a gay story, can you imagine my husband sleeping with another man?

What does he really want?

Deola tell me, what am I to do?, for the past five years all I do is clean your father’s mess, and yet he doesn't treat me like his wife, he claims to love me more than himself but all he does is to hurt and disrespect me.

As much as I want to be with him, I'm tired of being hurt. I can’t be living my life thinking what your father is doing, who is about to blackmail him, if he’s using protection or sleeping with the boy next door. If he can’t get a grip, then I can’t keep being the victim ’’.

I felt her pain and anger, and I really don’t understand what happened to my dad.

Why five years ago?

Truly five years ago everything was great except the fact that I was crushing on my father...not anymore though, so I'm not the only crazy one.

I was happy knowing that nothing sexual is going on between my mom and Collins, but I still want to be in total control of the situation, Collins might end up being my mom's boy-toy if I don’t start making sure he doesn't end up as that now, the thought of it is gross, but I will make sure it doesn't happen.

I need to talk to father as soon as possible and speak sense into him, he really needs to stop playing the victim now, except if there is more I'm yet to know on his own side.

I really had fun with my mom; we talked about a lot of things, so much for mother and daughter bonding. She wants me to start getting involved with her business; so once I finish my masters I can join her company as the young boss, I can’t wait. I know my future is bright, and I'm going to be controlling many things.

Later that day I got a message from Collins, asking if we could meet.

You think I said no?

Well I need to keep my frienemies close, and it was a Yes! 

We’re meeting next weekend, it seems like a date, and I could really use one now.

 It’s ok to be a bitch, said my mom some years ago.