DEO’S DIARY, EP. 7...MOM’S POOL OF SECRET

Seriously! I’ve exhausted my share of being normal! The more I try; the more skeletons pop out of the cupboard. I’m beginning to think my family is cursed! I thought I could carry on without letting it get to me, but I can’t! I’m going crazy! It’s like I’m spun in a web of secrets and I’m the prey! Everybody seem to be out to get me!

I tried! Honestly I tried! I thought I was taking a chance at normal by going on a date with someone new. Dairy I can swear I met him on the internet; on the site I newly joined. I was totally discrete about who I was. I even had fake pictures uploaded! Every information I provided on my profile wasn’t me, yet the site suggested him as my possible match. It estimated we had a 90% chance of making it work and somehow I believed it.

His profile screamed sexy, young, handsome and certified player and I couldn’t resist. I was obviously not looking for a lover so what the hell? Now that I recall, it was quite strange how we connected instantly with our first chat. Before I blinked we’ve gone on several dates, held hands, snuggled, kissed and I honestly felt like heaven was only a mile away. I’ve never been happier!

He totally had me glowing and occupied that I had no room in my head for any other thought but his. Mum, Dad, My cousin Wale, even quality girl’s time with Annie became a thing of the past. He was ever present since I decided to give him a chance! Oh dairy! How I loved going out to the movies, for dinner, for swimming, to beaches and parties with Collins. Oh yes! His name is Collins and with him I was ready to go to the moon and back!

He was my sweetest escape! My guilty pleasure! He was just so good to be true, that I planned to give him all of me without holding back. And yes including my virginity! If my thoughts and imaginations of Collins count I wouldn’t even be a virgin. I have fucked him all styles and position in my head from the first day I set my eyes on him. You might find it surprising that I didn't know much about Collins and I don’t really care. I just wanted to live in the moment and enjoy normal while it lasted.

I wanted to go through every motion, every pain mixed with pleasure, every high and every low while giving away my innocence. I kind of always thought I owed it to Dad, but what the fuck, I could give it to whoever I want. He wasn’t going to take it anyway so why die Virgin Mary. The thought of it though blows my brain out! I just hoped Collins surpass my expectations and most importantly make me get over dad.

It was going to be my first time so I wanted nothing less than perfection. I mean after waiting this long I deserve nothing less!

I’ve been saving my red Victoria’s secret lingerie for this day, I thought it would be for dad, but I don’t care who it is going to be anymore, I’ve been saving it for two years now, and it must be worn on this day.

My ass feel so firm and bubble in the panties and my boobs are just chilling nice in orange shaped, I love what I saw in the mirror, so I picked my phone and called Collins to come and get me. Armpit shaved, and my pubic hair trimmed to V-shape, I generously sprayed my “heat by Beyoncé” perfume on, and my short hair will not be distracting.

 Collins arrived forty-five minutes after the call, exactly when I finished dressing up, I don’t like keeping a man waiting though, and I learnt that from dad, that way you can take me serious for my time.

He told me he has his friends in his house, so we will go to his Auntie’s house, which is free and better… I just wanted to get it over with, where is done doesn’t matter, as long as its conducive, so I just shrugged and told him to ride on, he smiled at me, and teased me as usual “that’s my Deo on the rocks”... We stopped to eat, I had spaghetti and fish while he ate Amala and vegetable, that’s a strong man food uh? Preparing to take my dignity.

We drove into this estate and I was struck with dejavu

“This is a new estate, very expensive”…I thought of the same the first time I came here with mom, “new and expensive”.

I've been trying to convince my aunt that I move in here, but she is yet to agree, as he makes his turnings, left and right, the memories of mom and I, filled me up.

I wish he took another direction but no, I'm not sure I was listening to him anymore…I was so eager to see where he will stop, or when his direction will change from the one mom took.

Suddenly I heard my name and I startled “are you okay Deo?”

“Of course, I'm fine” I just can’t wait.

He parked in front of the same house my mom parked some weeks ago.

“Is this your aunt house? You need to see the smile on his face, full of pride, as he exclaimed yes! Dangling his keys in my face. I faked a call as we stepped out of the car,

 “My dad is sick, and I was told it’s serious” (I saw disappointment flying out of his wide opened eyes) I told him we need to reschedule for another day; he dropped me off, and promised to call later.

Here I am, wondering, could Collins be my mom's sugar boy, or he has a brother somewhere and I don't know....we seem to have affinity for the same men, Dad, now Collins, I need to find out more. I'm putting on, a life jacket as; I swim in mom's pool of secrets and lies.

Now I've make up my mind, no more trying to be normal or getting away from all the dramas, I am going to stay abnormal and end all this dramas.