Deo's Diary-episode three.....he definitely has the joker card! Diary of a young girl that is sexually attracted to her father

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In Wale's (my cousin) room... I watched him closed the door, I planned to make the situation look like, its no big deal, so I sat on his rough bed, boys and being rough.I glanced through his room, scattered books and shoes all over the place, I spotted something quite interesting, "a porn-magazine" on the front page, lies the picture of a pretty white lady with big ass, shoved in her opened puss, a black big dick and  beside this magazine, stood a body lotion,without a cover, where could the cover be?,  I wonder what that is (was) used for, its not the talk for now. 


''What the hell were you doing?, that was so sudden, coming after a few minute silence, seems like somebody is trying to draw my gaze from the magazine.

Wale!...I screamed back, what the hell did you think I was doing, I gently crossed my legs, looking at the direction of the magazine steadily and intently... I want him to know that my eyes were caught by the picture, and guess what?, it works, he rushed to pick the magazine and threw it in his opened wardrobe, then he snapped... 

Got a call from your dad this afternoon, that he was not feeling fine, I drove him to the hospital, the doctor told him his blood pressure was high and he needs rest, he was given some medication and since I brought him home, he has been sleeping, I was checking to see if he's up that was why I gently open the door, and I... I didn't ask for this story, but a bit of digression is needed, and Wale by himself, just helped me out of this awkwardness.

Oh my! I jumped off the bed, I didn't know my dad is not fine, high blood pressure? what could he be thinking of?.... why didnt you call me or mom?... really, I amazes myself with the way I'm playing this, its not like the first time dad will be told his BP is high nor to rest, but this drama I'm putting up, is to get myself out of Wale's room. its no big deal, he needs rest and he's getting it. 

But why are you getting so sexual looking at your father?... Or there's something I don't know. I wonder why he had to use the word "father" instead of "dad" I guess to make me feel guilty, yeah! the sick daughter, voyeurising on her father's bulge, well, that worked me up and I feel so terrible and filthy. what would dad say or do, if he had opened his eyes to see me doing all that... I was totally crushed by guilt, and nailed to the floor of shame, but I'm sure, he never think of me that way, ever!, I'm his daughter, not lover, and the best I can ever be, is his daughter. But what about my feelings for him?, these feelings had always been there, long before now, and it's still right here, immortalised in my body and soul. I'm more than a mess and truly I need help.

I don't even understand what happened myself, I ought to feel sheepish and beat but somehow I felt cocky instead, guess that's the best defense I could put on. what did you think you saw me doing Mr?, I can't remember what I was actually doing, it's like... I kept repeating the same two words in a dreamy whisper. "it's like...it's like...it's like..." 
He moved closer, grabbed me by by left arm, and drew me close to himself, his eyes glinted mean, and were looking directly into mine, wide opened that I could see the floaters in them, but I was strong enough, neither did I looked away nor blinked, but his look told me he was certain of whatever he saw. He whispered into my left ear, his lips almost touching my ear, its suppose to tickle, but hell no, my ear was ready to catch every words coming out of his mouth. " I saw you clearly and I'm not playing, I saw you fingering yourself hard and fondling your breast, while you looked at your father's bulge, you did it so well that it turned me on so bad Deo". There was a long grave silence in the room, it was a deafening silence, I can't even think, this part of my cousin, I've never seen before, he doesn't look angry, but was so serious, what card would I play, he definitely has the joker card. 

Wale standing very close to me was totally out of  comfort, his lips almost touching mine, and he won't let go of my arm, all that was resounding in my head was "it turned me on so bad Deo", memories began to flash in my head...I remembered the way Wale stared at me sometimes and said "if you were my girlfriend", I remembered him playfully touched, my breast and said he was sorry, but they are firm. it all began to make sense to me. I stared directly into his eyes, and he was giving me this sexy look, gently raising his left brow, his thick lips are slightly opened, looking ready to plant a big kiss on my wide opened mouth.

 Maybe the family is sick, I don't even care about what everyone is up to, but his thoughts towards me was gross! "I turned him on" did I say gross? well everything is gross, and I need this madness to stop...I snatched my arm out of his grip, gently walked out of his room, I hope my silence says a lot to him, maybe that will shut us both up, on what he saw and what I heard.

I checked on dad, he was still sleeping like a baby, couldn't spend a second looking at him, cos I'm sure that salacious feeling is still lurking somewhere in me.  

I went back to bed imagining what sex with my cousin sounds like, its not funny at all, I just don't like the sound, it bled my ear and shattered my heart. well, I can't wait to leave this house tomorrow, and get away from all this demonic desires from the deepest pit of hell.... Oh! before I forget, I got a call from mom, she said she will be back from Port Harcourt tomorrow, and she would like us to hangout, not like mother and daughter, but like friends, and I begin ponder, " like friends", the last time we did such, she was trying to find out if dad's secretary has been coming to the house when she was away... well, let's see what happens this time as "friends", but I have a feeling something strange will come out of this.

Diary! I need help.